A quick post before the monster awakes!
I had time to make muffins (and time to eat one too many of them) while my sweet pea naps. This whole baby thing that had me straight terrified and stressed out for a while has been getting better and better. It’s the combination of him getting older and more interactive and me getting used to it 🙂 It seems your expectations adjust and the crying becomes part of the routine. I think it helps that I try to find silver lining again, like when his nightly crying fest starts, I thank God I’m home with my healthy wailing baby and not in the hospital for an illness or his breathing or something.
I start work soon and I keep hearing everyone tell me “I’ll get through it”. Now I know it won’t be a walk in the park to leave my baby. I expect a small emotional rollercoaster I guess. But I’m actually looking forward to it a little. I like routine so I’m eager to get our schedule together. I think I’ll also like the adult interaction again. It’s crazy because before I had him, I REFUSED to go back to work full time…and here I am now equally sad to leave my babe but happy to feel more human again.
I think the hardest part will be babe’s first illness 😦 It’s inevitable with this nasty cold and flu season we’re in the middle of. We’ve hibernated for the past few months so he hasn’t been exposed to anything really. I just keep trying to prepare myself for it. I also say prayers that his body be ready and able to fight off whatever he catches. I can’t pray for him to not get sick forever and I’m quite thankful we’ve made it this far.
I might be a little jealous too, just because someone else gets to enjoy his smiles and coos and have fun with him all day. That really get’s me, the idea that I might miss milestones. I hope our last day together he is super fussy so I have that to run with 😉 then I just feel sorry for his care provider…(kidding…kind of).
It might be a little easier for me because I have amazing care lined up for him. My cousin does in-home care and she used to babysit ME! And I loved her when she watched my sister and I growing up. Also, we’re extremely lucky to have my Aunt helping most of the time. We meet next week about baby’s breathing condition, to go over it all, and my Aunt insisted on being there. Without them, and how seriously they are taking his condition, I doubt I’d even be able to leave him.
We’re actually looking into the Owlet monitor. We decided against it before he was born but now that he has his breathing thing and will be exposed to germs (ugh), we’re thinking it might be helpful for a good nights sleep. Babe sleeps in our room still (and will for as long as he fits in his bassinet) but I still get nervous about him at night. I thank God before bed for our little family all tucked in together in one room. By little family I mean Jeffrey and myself, baby, and three dogs that all have their own bed. Kitty cat get’s the whole downstairs to herself because she doesn’t behave.
Time to go cherish more snuggles with my main squeeze (sorry Jeffrey) and catch more Home Improvement 😉 I could watch those reruns ALL DAY…oh wait I have for the last several months.